summary:

an infection which crosses the blood brain barrier - or any other stress - can DAMAGE THE BRAIN'S REPAIR MECHANISM.

https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC8167938/

Microglia are resident cells of the brain that regulate brain development, maintenance of neuronal networks, and injury repair.

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Microglia

The brain and spinal cord, which make up the CNS, are not usually accessed directly by pathogenic factors in the body's circulation due to a series of endothelial cells known as the blood–brain barrier, or BBB.

The BBB prevents most infections from reaching the vulnerable nervous tissue.

https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC4717322/

Furthermore, when microglia are triggered to switch to an inflammatory phenotype, not only can this lead to microgliosis and neuroinflammation resulting in a disruption of normal neuroimmune homeostasis, but also this detrimental process can continue long after the initial insult or cause for the activation has been resolved (Lu et al., 2011).

https://www.drlamcoaching.com/blog/adrenal-fatigue-and-narcissism/

The Neuroaffect Circuit includes the brain, the autonomic nervous system (ANS), and the microbiome or the balance of bacteria in the body.

This triad is responsible for the biological aspects of mental health issues. They are each individually and separately affected by ongoing stress, including the ongoing stress of a narcissistic relationship.

in other words the effects of the psychopath CALDERWOOD and the narcissist RAYMOND as well as the onslaught by others, GOUDRIAAN LENAARS BHARVANI MARGARITIS LEWIS, has caused blood-brain-barrier damage that then has led to brain damage.

the only reason i am still alive is because of the inherent resilience of 45+ years of brain damage *and recovery*, but the past year's [non-contact] violence has been touch-and-go as to whether it overwhelmed my body's ability to recover.

i.e. when my brain REPAIR mechanism got severely damaged, that's when things got really bad.

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